bao bei happy b'day

it's 4 yrs ord.. bao bei, mommy wish u good health and happy always.  on the day of her b'day, daddy sent you a b'day message ; Happy Birthday to bao bei, daddy and mummy love you very much and be happy always! from daddy on 5th sept 2010, 12am.

when u read this blog one day, do remember tat how much we luv u.. u must luv urself as you're our life and we luv u wholehearted.  we have fight for your life so you must treasure every second of it and lead a meaningful and colourful life everyday.

just finish watch one show on tv... about one mother who nvr ever thinking to lost hope as her son is blind from young.. she let him go to normal school as she want him to grow up as normal as possible.. he's 14 today.. and told the world, 'mom, i might not be able to see your face for this life, however, if there's next life i hope i'll still be able to find u and be your son'

last week my princess was admitted to hospital for 'suspected dengue' huh... at first it was just normal fever.. gave her fever syrup.. first day okay.. second day okay .. third day.. hmmm hw come her body tempreture seems not so OK.. after a thought.. asked her dad tat just came home to send us to clinic to check... the doc. straight away do blood test as there's too many dengue reported...

blood taken, doc. came out from his lab.. mdm, i think u'll have to bring ur gal to hospital now immediately as her blood pallete only at 24 plus.. huh my heart drop at tat point as normal shld be between 100-150... gosh panic.. tears just keep falling ... called grandma, call yima calling for help and motivation... call god call whoever for motivation....

straight away admitted her, blood taking... princess cried her heart out it's really painful hearing her screaming for help.. both her hand and foot all blue black... first dengue test - negative.. do second time - negative.. huh as other then her blood pallete drop there's others ... blood Phoenix dun understand wat's tat but it's part of blood as well also drop.. makes doc. worried same make Phoenix worried.. called our spore specialist doc. for princess..to standby in case any emergency we will rush there.. haiz... it's really scared me to hell ... tat time Phoenix keep asking for mercy of great do not ever take her from me.. it's not her time yet... please please please.. first nite cant sleep as worried her fever will up.. second nite her blood pallete still no up.. 3rd day still not up... Phoenix keep chanting and get member to help to chant for Princess.. 4th day... her blood finally make improvement increase to 46 then nite time 76.. then next day 106 huh.. we've finally won the battle again tis time.. it's finally diagnose at viral fever.. :(

thank you those tat send regards, my cousin tat visited us although she's bz with her work... and my family tat keep supporting me .. not forgetting the doc. and nurse at hospital tat's so frenzly and caring during our stay there as Princess condition is special tat's why they've pay extra care on her.. thnk you very much for all your frenzly care... may u be blessed wth gd health

battle

it's being a while since the last visit from Phoenix.. thnking of update latest happening here.. Princess done her follow up for her eyes... great improvement .. yeeepeee so happy.. no need operations so far as per optologist thnks god being mercy with her.  Follow up wth her neuro too.. as advice we're going to wean off one of her med. hmmm.. quite worried the last few days.. as worried the worst might happen.. keep the emergency dose close to Phoenix all the time... pls pls pls pls gohonzon.. protect her from any harm... it's being more then 3 yrs... pls pls pls pls pls.. it's enough as Phoenix really feel heart pain and sometimes really stop breathing when the thg happen... as she's part of me.. it feels so painful and helpless only mercy of the great and help...Phoenix beg for mercy shld there be anythg tat need to be done... let Phoenix handle it... don't harm the little body anymore .. she's tired too... Phoenix still believe in miracle.. Nam Myo-ho Renge Kyo... it's like a roar of lion... turn the poison to medicine.. we will win tis battle... and must win in this battle YES.. baobei we can do it ;)

Never Give Up

http://news.yahoo.com/video/us-15749625/autistic-student-s-inspirational-graduation-speech-20371829

Just watch the link above and it really inspire Phoenix lots.  Yah always believe there's hope, never give up... there's will there's way!

sickness...

As normal human being Phoenix guess there's no way we can excape from 'sickness' big or small .... sometimes really thinking why it happen.. share lots wth tinkerbell lately on tis topics.. hahahaha we're all lay man so it's pretty normal getting discourage when heard nt so gd news.. ppl said we thnk too much.. nt thnk is also problem ... remember one of my gd frenz told me... spend while we can as some ppl can even enjoy ord be angel khi hahahahaha...it's really interesting talking about tis topics.

Remember Phoenix told her frenz before.. if spend all gt emergency how??? her frenz replied : so many emergency lor .... neh... gam gam gt emergency happen lor hahahahaha tat's why it's hard for us to predict what's going to happen coz no matter hw great u're... we are not GOD!  saw this sentence last few days.. god give and take so treasure every moment possible. 

Honestly talk about 'sick' phoenix very phobia...... lately health nt so gd.. cant really breath normal, getting giddy lots, there's time phoenix asking not to be angel so fast hahahahaha coz worried it might happen ... we cant predict what's next ;p sigh... do hope grant me longer life hehehehehe coz lots of thg not done and complete and lots of lots of ... thg want to do.. havent really enjoy Phoenix life yet so......be mercy wth Phoenix ;) hahahahaha

hmmm need to continue my assignment again... zzzz

Tired..

feeling really tired.. tired of life tired of everything... dun knw why just feeling very very very very tired.. s$%^... sometimes really thinking why should we need to go through all this... will there be a better world then here???  a lot of times, really have a thought tat leaving this world and go to another world should be better.. will it!!! sigh.. c how long can stay put.................... everything seems to be so far to reach.. everything done is nt rite... every... all wrong... just feeling very very tired.. shld have a rest nw.. zzzzz